what do you do
when you find people so easy to love?

people who are easily lovable don't need my love
and what do i have to offer when the only thing i have is a thing you don't need

i try and love you from afar
but i'm sorry
i'm finding it hard to keep it in my chest
when you are so beautiful

You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one.

They work.
I feel better.
But this way,
everything feels more real.

Today's the day I realized that I could be loved

It's cold outside.

Dear New Jersey,

A few days ago, I had a moment when I really wished you weren't so far away.

Because you see, a few days ago, I came out to my mom.

And being that you're the one that went gay for me over that summer,

And also seeing how New Orleans was the closest thing to a real relationship I've ever had,

I missed it for a bit.

And since I'm already being so embarrassingly honest, I might as well admit that I also have you to thank for kickstarting me down a road where I'm not absolutely repulsed by what I see in the mirror.

So, even though none of this really matters to you anymore, thanks. FOR THE GOOD TIMEESSS. HAHA. Nah, but really, for not ruling me out, even when I had already.

Word.

Regards,
Irvine

P.S. Happy birthdayy

I'll play your stupid game even though you change the rules every time I start winning. Don't you see it's making you so small and petty, but you keep pushing so I'll keep playing and I'll win and win until one day you stoop to a new low and then I'll tell you, "Look here sir and madam, I'm not going to play your stupid game anymore. You cheated but I kept playing and look at you now, you're covered in slime and you hate me for being spotless. Well, I quit because it looks like you won after all, you've created a face only a mother could love. Make me your trophy you can put on your shelf, because sure as hell no one will want what's left of this."