whackadoodle.

inane
insane
the virility,
our ability
turning profound to profane
net it, regret it
edit, forget it

Ingratiated
insatiated
regurgitated
intentions
in tension
try to place blame
attempts to lay claim
on Beauty, on Love
push comes to shove
everyone's the same

A Draft from 07/10/12 - #happybirthdaystine

Subject: What else..

there are:

things to do
people to meet
places to find
lessons to discover

sights to amaze
emotions to capture
moments to witness
memories to laugh over

dreams to be found
thoughts to be held
ideas to remember
seasons to be felt

words to hear
hearts to feel
melodies to create
songs to heal

dishes to taste
companions to embrace
lives to share
loves to encounter

twenty four years
like twenty four hours

i wonder what's in store for tomorrow
hey you know, it feels like i just got born


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[*Got the phrase 'just got born' from http://justgotborn.tumblr.com/ ala Autostraddle!]

Seriously, though.

Must we fertilize
Everything all at once?
The world smells like poo

MANIFEST
yo' deeest-iny
stiney
weenie
gotta come clean-y
wit yo'self
then help
will come
from the universe
in bursts
for real

can you feeeel

it 

it's coming 

drumming

hear 

the sound

arounddd.
like

life
is coming
for you

i think honesty might be the only thing i have going for me

but it's hard 

and being alone makes it easy to confuse anything with love

love

a little

secretly

in a daydream

take this piece from off my arm and place it on your self
so if you see them turn away
you'll still recall
your scarlet letter stands for heart

"since feeling is first" - E.E. Cummings

since feeling is first
since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;

wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world

my blood approves,
and kisses are better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
—the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says

we are for each other: then
laugh, leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph

And death i think is no parenthesis 

"since feeling is first" - E.E. Cummings

[John Davies - A Visualization of Prime Numbers]
"The rule for working out prime numbers is really simple, but no one has ever worked out a simple formula for telling you whether a very big number is a prime number or what the next one will be. If a number is really, really big, it can take a computer years to work out whether it is a prime number.

[...]

Prime numbers are what is left when you have taken all the patterns away. I think prime numbers are like life. They are very logical but you could never work out the rules, even if you spent all your time thinking about them."

- Mark Haddon, The Curious Case of the Dog in the Night-Time

glorious heaven
i nuzzle in your bosom
sweet pound of french roast

I'm Always Right.. (except When I'm Left)

It may be that

when you get right down to it

there are no answers in life

none

and the only time there is a 'right' answer,

or a right

Thing-To-Do,

is when you decide that it is.



nothing is real.

“I am still every age that I have been[...] Far too many people misunderstand what “putting away childish things” means, and think that forgetting what it is like to think and feel and touch and smell and taste and see and hear like a three-year-old or a thirteen-year-old or a twenty-three-year-old means being grownup.”

- Madeleine L’Engle

Praan

I will not easily forget
The life that stirs in my soul
Hidden amidst Death
That infinite Life

I hear you in the thunder
A simple tune
A tune to which I will arise

And in that storm of happiness
As your music plays in your mind
The whole wide world
Dances to your rhythm

I hear you in the thunder
A simple tune
A tune to which I will arise

-"Stream of Life"
Adapted from Praan, a Bengali poem by Rabindranath Tagore
Via wherethehellismatt.com

Love is a many splendored thing/Love lifts us up where we belong/All you need is love

"I love the number of people you can love at the same time, one deep erotic love radiating even to strangers, crippling cynics, making a temporary sense of the senseless, choreful day." - Stephen Dunn

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

-William Ernest Henley

4.13-15.12

and in the end

what it all came down to

was that everyone here was here because they wanted to be

we all were excited to be there

i like to be different

i'm afraid when everything is said and done
it will be that i'm the one that can't commit

that i prefer to be alone
that in the end
i didn't live for love
but for loneliness

Dream Doodles from Spring-ish 2012

 Where is my mind? [a la Lisa's glass ink pen]

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 night Mare [a la Bic's iPad app]                  

IF You Don't Know What to Do

IF You Don't Know What to Do,

Sit down
Take out a notebook
Make a list of every every every single thing you want to do.
Every every.
Don't stop until there is absolutely nothing left at all.
Stop
Let go of your breath
Sit back

Now,
Pick one.

E.E. Cummings

"Cummings, like quite a few modernist contemporaries, objectified langauge and even committed what we might call organized acts of violence against it. But this is violence with a cause, as Cummings’s linguistic innovations and typography serve poetic means within his philosophy. Theodore Spencer is accurate when he writes that through his typography Cummings “wants to control the reading of the poem as much as he can, so that to the reader, as to the poet, there will be the smallest possible gap between the experience and its expression” (120). Gorham Munson, writing as early as in the 1920s when Cummings was just at the beginning of his career, already realized that “Cummings makes punctuation and typography active instruments for literary expression” (10). The operative word here is active, action, process, and movement being prized concepts in the Cummings metaphysics. Norman Friedman highlights Cummings’s “obsession” with Making: “Experimental technique is the means whereby the poet tries to reproduce in the reader’s mind the vital flux of becoming which he (the poet) sees in life” (Growth 49). Something of this spirit is revealed by Richard Cureton when he says that “Perceptual immediacy for Cummings was not just an aesthetic principle: it was a central theme of his art” (“Iconic Syntax” 184)"

-E. E. Cummings’s Parentheses: Punctuation as Poetic Device - Roi Tartakovsky http://www.engl.niu.edu/ojs/index.php/style/article/viewFile/18/15

but maybe this is home

growing up in a place where the landscape is as meticulously manicured as its residents

(switch?)

romping amongst the fallen trees

like a survivor

we're still all play pretend

'

this world of make believe

when you're sad

when you're sad

wash your hands
go outside
drink a lot of water
take a shower
take two advil
take a dump

remind yourself that the day will end
and you might feel better tomorrow

On Heterosexuality

"Well, you know, minority politics has been a lot easier to sell than to just say, “Being human ought to get you human dignity,” full stop. If you can pin down the difference, if you can make the difference the salient issue, it somehow makes it easier for people to stomach the fact that they can’t go out and just beat people over the head. I don’t know why that is. I find it intensely frustrating."

- Hanne Blank,(http://www.salon.com/2012/01/22/the_invention_of_the_heterosexual/)

And,

"I do think that the issue of gay marriage is a very interesting one to look at in the context of the history of sexuality, because what I think it testifies to is not so much the tendency that non-heterosexuality has to destabilize heterosexual culture, but the incredible depth of the investment that our culture and our government have in regulating the kinds of relationships that people have in their lives."

Also, Straight: The Surprisingly Short History of Heterosexuality - http://www.amazon.com/Straight-Surprisingly-Short-History-Hetrosexuality/dp/0807044431

why do people say
they absorb things like a sponge?
one squeeze and all's lost